Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I think I left my spontaneity in my other pants

Or maybe I'm just feeling lazy...

I have a great post in mind for all the humility I learned this week trying to make a beautiful birthday cake for my sis...  but that will require loading pictures up...  and swallowing a LOT of pride.  I'm not sure I can stomach it. 

maybe tomorrow?

For now I will just tell you that I had my son call home from school (after school... you know, when I was expecting him home) to tell me that he was doing some activity...  I was glad because all kids should be involved... but almost fainted when he finished the phone call with "love ya bye"...  I know it's just reflex - it's what I say to them as they walk out that door for school.  I know that I'm doomed to be a hugless and smoochless Mom in a few years (my youngest is 6... my days are numbered) but it also felt really good. 

As you may know my crossroads dilemma of a few weeks back has ended with me staying home as a full time Mom...  planning to take some classes and become a real grown up - you know what... I haven't had a moment of regret.  Instead I've had a number of moments of affirmation.  M coming off the bus on day one of school - literally running into my arms (wouldn't have traded that for the world).  Yesterday's phone call.  Even just sitting here typing as my kids mill around the kitchen spreading peanut butter and choosing snacks for their lunches (hello, I'm running out of Ding Dongs already... and who was supposed to buy more Capri Sun?)...  even this small moments remind me how blessed I am - how wonderful it is to be here debating whether or not H's cough is bad enough that she should miss school (it's not) and whether or not Po will have to comb his hair before getting on the bus (he will).

Life is good.  not always hilarious, but good.

23 comments:

One Cluttered Brain said...

First comment?
WA-hoo!!!!
YAY!
I feel special now!

One Cluttered Brain said...

I really enjoy staying at home too! However my cats don't seem to. My Mama cat wants to go out and find a Tomcat so she get preggo AGAIN.
I so need to get that cat fixed...
Soon. Very soon.

But for NOW, I will enjoy the time I have with my girls, writing and eating DARK chocolate...
Mmm.
Delicious!

Saimi said...

Those truly are the best moments, especially when the boy says he loves you!

My middle son spoke in grunts for most of his teenage years. I cried all the way home when I dropped him off at college after he said, "Love you too mom."

Being a stay at home mom is the best, enjoy every moment!!

lori said...

Yay! I love days of affirmation.

Garden of Egan said...

Congrats on the staying home thing!!!
I loved being at home when my kids got off the bus.
Now you don't have to worry about Ding Dongs, you'll have homemade treats for them everyday!
I hope to see pictures of your Betty Crocker moments.

Lisa said...

I went to lunch with some women/mothers/homemakers yesterday. One just had her oldest fly off to college and she asked, "What do you guys DO all day? I'm so bored." I could think of nothing I'd rather be doing that being home. Making cheese soup and home made bread for the first day of school, sewing baby blankets for newborns, taking in meals for grieving families...all of those things and being there to figure out the cough and buy Ding Dongs...that's what we do. And how wonderful is that?! SOOO WONDERFUL! I'm glad you're in the ranks with me.

Kristina P. said...

I hope you're running around your house, naked.

Homer and Queen said...

I got a little tear in my eye for you. Don't know if I was touched or jealous. Maybe both. Probably jealous. Although I still get the hugs and kisses, even from the loser son.

Barbaloot said...

What lucky kids to have you want to be around them:)

Have you seen the way kids are "combing" their hair now? Not sure that was necessary...

Missy said...

My 12 year-old son told me yesterday that he loved me. I looked at him puzzled and he said, "No, I don't want anything, just thought I would tell ya."
I am crying just thinking about it.

Becky said...

Love this post. Sure, sometimes I get bored and sometimes things are monotonous, but I think I have the best job on the planet.

Thanks for reminding me.

cold cocoa said...

I really like your title. Anyway, your plans sound perfect. Glad you feel good about them!

Serene is my name, not my life! said...

Oh, nice!

Right now my kids just think I'm mean, because I'm making them eat lunch before they have a treat.

I'm actually not looking forward to school starting next week.

I'll miss my little girl!

Cherie said...

I've been a stay at home mom my whole life and I have loved every minute. No regrets whatsoever.
Most of my chickies have now flown the nest so I started working part time at the school this year - I am home well before the 2 I have left are home and I love that. There is nothing that replaces hearing about your kids day and getting or giving that hug - those moments are just too fleeting.
Good job!

LC said...

Awww. That is so sweet.

Holly said...

Definitely moments to cherish!!

I remember when college boy was an early teen and still wanted lap time! LOVED IT!! Even when his friends were around! THEN... he matured a bit more and that was just... you know... TABOO!! LOL!! MEMORIES... Light the corners of my mind....

((HUGS))

Jen T said...

Being a stay at home mom is the best! I have always done it. It is hard, and there are lots of frusturating times, but the little things and the love make up for everything--your being there is the best! Best of luck to you! Good choice!

The Crash Test Dummy said...

Oh, I am so happy for you that you are staying home. HIGH FIVE. And even happier that you are going to be a grown up soon.

LY~!

Anisha said...

I've been a stay @ home mom for almost 9 years (whoa that just made me feel old), and often I wonder am I doing a good job!!?? But it's moments that you mentioned that confirm, ok they luv me, they really luv me!!! Yeah and then we run out of otter pops, and I become the evil stepmom again!!!! Waaaaa..... www.happychaoticfamily.com

Terresa said...

We have some Hostess cupcakes you can borrow, erm, have if you'd like. :) Our school year starts next week, and we are lazying through the last few days of summer here, until then.

My youngest is 3 and already I feel the hugging/snuggling/smoochy mom & kid days are numbered. Waaaaaaaaaa.

Teachinfourth said...

I think that Rob Thomas had it right…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Ba-Gzq4EO8

Shelle-BlokThoughts said...

Oh T... that is so awesome, and I am completely jealous. Seriously. I wish so much I could stay home.

I hope and pray everyday that that day comes soon.

I believe you made the right decision also!

Love ya!

Krista said...

Wish I was at home - but not in the stars at the moment. We need this thing called health insurance. Sure is nice when the kids aren't embarassed to tell you they love you, huh? Ha! Maybe he'll make it a habit!